This is my son - it's been true for me that son's are less emotionally demanding in terms of their drama. But the emotions that I have experienced with this boy certainly run the same gamut as the girls. Starting with the additional 14 days he stayed past what I thought was enough. When my OB expressed concern I was at least empowered enough to ask some questions. This baby was a planned VBAC after two C-Sections and it was my heart's desire to do everything I could to make it happen. I had a wonderful Doula (Anne Leibau), who went on to become a Midwife. I think of her every year as I look through the photos she took and think of the demands I put on her during Sean's birth. (Of course I'm looking through a different lens and know that she was just a wonderful Doula, doing what she needed to do to help me get through it). Still, if we think of active labor as beginning around the time we are 4cm, it was a measurable 36 plus hours after that, after every intervention in the book (minus the C-section), that this big guy made his appearance... OP, meaning face up, meaning back labor and lots of pain and effort. Either way, born at 5:30 am and home by noon. I felt like a Warrior Princess of Birth! Emotions ran deep over this guy. I would never be the same person after this.
When there started to be medical issues, I struggled through the muddy waters of denial and waited past the safe mark to get the help I needed for my boy. The emotions that came with having to admit I was worried, allow surgery, SUPPLEMENT! Really challenging times, that we came through quite nicely. My boy will never be like all the other boys - he is defined only by the power of Sean! If you know him, you know what I mean. His 17th Birthday was actually yesterday but I didn't have time to write. By the end of the day, he had over 100 wall posts on his Facebook Page. If key people were missing the boat on wishing him a happy birthday, he would gently remind them through a personal message. Today, we are already talking about next year's birthday and discussing how many wall posts he might have then. With the rapid changes to Social Media, will there even still be Facebook this time next year? That being said, he's marking his calendar already and knows which day of the week all of his birthdays past and future fall on :)
There's just something precious about this kid and he brings people through all the emotions of life, just by being himself!
Regrets? None ~ We get what we need and because I believe in God, I believe that Sean was chosen for this family and we for him. I for his mother and he for my son... Just like my girls, only easier to reason with.
Happy Birthday a day late Sean! Mom Loves You Very Much!!!
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